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| Friday, January 18th, 2008 | | 2:15 pm |
| | Sunday, February 18th, 2007 | | 6:07 pm |
| | Thursday, January 18th, 2007 | | 1:01 pm |
so how big is the hole this time???
well as of two days ago (Jan 16th) the hole is looks like this  The dark area on upper side of the wound is where it keeps going on deeper but I was not able to shine the light deep enough to see the bottom of the hole, now you wonder how big it really is, here is a pic for reference, the shiny object is a Quarter that I taped to my leg above the wound  Ok more later (well not pics just updates of what all fun I have had in the last two weeks) Current Mood:  amused | | Saturday, January 6th, 2007 | | 9:28 am |
friday night party
Yesterday around 8 lee and mae came over with chick pics and some cheese n bread n drinks, jim also came over with some sparkely water and nutz and chocolate and munchies. We had our own little paty in my hospital room. Jim stayed around till 11:30 with me and supported me thru a dressing change too. Lee even took pictures of our hospital party :-) Current Mood: happy | | Friday, January 5th, 2007 | | 8:58 am |
chicken are born
My chicks have hatched. I am going to have chicken. Polish chiken that is | | Thursday, January 4th, 2007 | | 6:17 pm |
another surger
So yesterday I had another surgery this time on my hip and its bigger hole and hurts more than the one on my tummy. Same reason though. Rosalie took day off work to take me to surgery. Nick came down from oakland to visit with me after surgery. Lee and mae came today from san leandro to visit. Simran is on his way from fremont to come see me in a few. Jake is taking friday off from work and is comming to see me from walnut crack. I am really loved :-) to have me friends come see me all the way down in los gatos at good sam hospital cause i am stubborn on what doctor I want to see. Current Mood:  ditzy | | Saturday, September 23rd, 2006 | | 8:14 pm |
I must be way Dense
I had planned to pickup my co-worker from Oakland on friday morning and drive her to work, I had planned for an extra hour and half of commute time to be able to do this, sounded good. I drove over to her place and as I was parking the hints started. I pulled up to the side walk just perfectly to land my front left tire into a manhole that was missing its cover, not missing really but just 6 feet away from where it is supposed to be. An hour wait to have tow truck to come out to lift my front end and get me back on the road. The drive to work horrid, 880 and the san mateo bridge are full of agressive and rude drives. Last time I checked the onramp traffic is to yield to the highway traffic, I saw one SUV come up the ramp onto the highway without even looking to see if she could merge, she side swept an old lady in a civic, and then started to scream at the old lady as if it was her fault. and that got me all pissed off. Manners and kindness is lost. I get to work, make myself a macha shake, and take a short walk to let the go of the stress of the morning events. Mid day I had to change campuses, (RWC to SSF). Get up to SSF get out of the car put my laptop on the roof of the car, get some book out, and I get told to move my car as construction guys need the space. I get in the car to move it and guess what I forgot the laptop on top and it went for crash testing. Ahh plans are being made to go see Jet Lee, I like Jet, he is sooooo cheezy and so over the top that all of his movies make me laugh, and cheerful. I am going. ok so I had to be away from my e-mail and patches was going to let me know the final plan aroud 5:30-6:00 by sms or call. Yeah I know I should have called him at 6:00 when I did not hear, but i was still edgy from the day, at 6:10ish co-worker calls in a panic because I had her laptop and notes in my car, (she forgot them in there) and need it as she has some work to do on Sat morning for work. I figured I can drive the laptop over the bridge and be back in time for the 10:30 movie, if boys are still going, and I would have to skip dinner with them, Patches darling calls a few min after I agreed to drive across the bridge. So I will hook up with the boys for movie. I am all happy. Jet and friends what could be better way to end this day... I go and all dress up looking sexy, drive accross the bridge, drop the laptop off quickly, go to the corner deli there and pick up a sandwich for din din that I will drive with. I dont wanna be late for jet and friends. It took me a little over 1.5 hours to make it from oakland to treasure island. I took the treasure island exit figured I can sit over the highway for a bit and try to relax a bit. as by this point i was in a panic that I will be late to movie, I hate being late it always stress me out. and the traffic was not helping. ok nice view and a breaze would be good. 15 min later I am back in the car inching my way to the city. by the time i was in the city movie had already started, and the time it would take me to park, and get over to the theater it be 1/2 over..... Now i am pissed so I head home. took a shower, and then sms'ed patches about my status. Sat morning, I am not a happy camper, yesterday was a total mess. I was so wound up and upset that I did not fall asleep till 5:30am. only to wake up at 6:30....... Ok so I decide I will cancle all my plans for today and let today happen. around 3:30 in the afternoon I got a craving for a sandwich from the litte store off market around 8th street. So I put my shoes on and decide to go and fulfil my craving. What CITY plans two Significantly large events on the same weekend, Well SF does, Guess what today they had the "Love fest" and tomorrow is "folsom street fair" and it took me 1 hour to drive around 1 block (9th street to market street to 8th street to mission) so I came back home without my sandwich and more agititated and upset than I was before. All the happenings have been around me driving, I should have just decided to park my car friday night and not drive it again till Monday, given the mess on friday. But I guess I am dense to have not done that. Tomorrow, I am driving from my place to J and R's place, I have checked and made sure I am not going to be using any streets that are near the fair. after that I will only drive when I drive from J and R's back home. That is it. For the weekend. I think tonight is an ambien night. other wise i will set off insonmia again. and that sucks too SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (no wonder my neghbiours think I am nuts), I scream all the time, and I am alone in the house, but it feels good after and long loud angry scream.................... Ok typing this all out kinda helped..... SCREAM helped even more Current Mood:  cranky | | Sunday, June 25th, 2006 | | 10:02 pm |
randomness that is me
Got home last night at 1:30 in bed at 3:00 awoke at 6:00 Dressed and out the door 6:30, Took a mix of 4 muni bus/street cars to 773 Market street to setup the Genentech Street Suite......... Things random strangers inquired about me today--- My fav Musical instrument to listen to: Glass Armonica, Love hearing Adagio in C (K356) for Glass Armonica by W. A. Mozart also known as Glass Harmonicas http://www.finkenbeiner.com/GLASSHARMONICA.htmPicture perfect ending to romantic evening: Sitting on a piano bench, and listening to my date play Piano, Or some musical instrument, (most woodwinds) Craziest thing I ever cooked: Tarantula my heritage: Persian Most common asked question today What do you do? My answer: For work? or for passion? Most requested one Both, I Say I am a systems Admin by trade, but fabric, wood, glass and photographic instruments drive my passion. After the Fag March, I walked up to Market and castro met an old friend for Lunch and then some sweet cravings. | | Friday, May 19th, 2006 | | 5:51 pm |
Went to the doctor on Tues. Morning to get my infection on tummy checked out cause it was starting to hurt really bad. He looked at it for less than a minute and was on the phone with a surgeon to get me in his office, We drove down the block to see the surgeon, he looked at it for about 4 minutes later he was calling The Good Samaritan Hospital to get me into surgery. Next I drive down another block and into PerSurgery, I am checked in, questioned, forms filled and rolled down to the OR in less than 1 hour, I saw the "swedish milk" being injected, next It was already 4:00pm and was in a private room at the good sam, with nice hole in my tummy, Spent Tues and Weds night at the good sam, now 3 times a day for a month or more I have to change the dressing. :-( this shall pass too.  Here I am removing my bandage that covers my dressing  Here I am getting dressed to change the dressing  Here I am removing the Dressing from the wound  This is what the hole in my tummy looks like  A nice deeper look into the hole  Here is what it looks like after I fill the wound with peroxide for every change  This is after the wound has been filled with dressing every day 6am, 2pm and 10pm I have to do this. till it heals | | Thursday, February 16th, 2006 | | 10:07 am |
| | Wednesday, January 4th, 2006 | | 9:19 pm |
| | Tuesday, March 15th, 2005 | | 7:28 pm |
Death does not destroy but rather completes
Pronunciation: 'deth Function: noun Etymology: Middle English deeth, from Old English dEath; akin to Old Norse dauthi death, deyja to die -- more at DIE 1 : a permanent cessation of all vital functions : the end of life -- compare BRAIN DEATH 2 : the cause or occasion of loss of life
3 capitalized : the destroyer of life represented usually as a skeleton with a scythe
Death has never been really a very sad event for me. Even when it was someone very close and dear to me. Somehow I have always viewed death as something that completes ones life, and not as something that ends or destroys. Yeah, there is a feeling of loss, but I have also always got a feeling of joy and feeling appeased. There is a sense of completion, almost a sense of pride when someone you care for achieves a set goal (eg. getting their Ph.D)
Myself I am not scared of death, but it has to come on its own time, trying to take ones own life does not bring completion but rather an end, almost as someone rips off last few chapters of a novel, this would bring an end to their reading but not completion.
In my past I have had many attempts at suicide, most were never even visible to anyone, My last attempt did put me in ICU for 3 day, back when I was still in college. Back then I did make a promise not to attempt ever again. When I made the promise it was honest, I had full intention of keeping it. Did not know how but I knew I will. There were many times that I wandered down the path towards suicide since then, never did attempt it again.
Last year was a significant emotional growth year for me. Most of that growth was not as many would call growth but rather I started to learn to identify different aspects of myself. Mainly Identify things that cause me abject pain. Yes just identify, not anything else. Yes to me that is growth. The hardest part of growth. To be able to identify what or where to grow (what ever that maybe). After identification its much easier to chart a course of growth. But when one know there is need for growth but does not know what or where its very difficult to chart anything.
One very significant thing that happened internally was that I know suicide is not an option, and in past when I had considered suicide as an option was partially based on how I have viewed death, completion. I wanted to achieve Completion, but what I had failed to realize was that in my mind it was death on its own time, (be natural, accident, or what have you) was completion. Suicide bring about an end, or death as described by the dictionary, Not what I want, or had ever wanted when looking at suicide as an option. I was equating suicide with death.
Making that realization, suicide is not same as death, and actually internalizing it, brought about a relief that I am not even sure how to describe. It has allowed me to really look back at all my attempts, and times when I was heading towards suicide, also acknowledge, that for many years I struggled with suicide.
Getting to an end, or finding an end, has never been my goal, as early on I learned that end is not always complete, and getting to the end without completion leave you further more uneasy than not knowing when and where the completion will happen. This is true for me at many levels, be it from an emotional state, or be it something I am working on. Everyone around me knows I have many projects going all at once some go on for a few years (my cat quilt), I can get to an end, which would be finished/completed project from outside view, faster. But they would never be complete for me, For many thing I do, I do them with passion and Drive, and when working on a personal project that passion is part of achieving completion. And l really like letting my passion guide me on what I want to work on. I guess, the process and emotions, and energy changes that I experience along the way of making the final product, (quilt, or wood work, or glass or what ever) is what bring completion. The final product often gets given to someone else for I have everything that product was destined to give me (emotions passion enerychanges, mood changes).
Current Mood: content | | Friday, February 25th, 2005 | | 9:42 pm |
GiGgLeS.
Tea and sandwiches and cheese and great company around 3:30pm Darkroom Mobile sink and giggles around 6:30 Yummy bread and DIP around 9:30 Great smelling stakes in the oven around 9:40 Soul soothing company of great friends through out. LUCKY person smiling as he is typing. Current Mood: happy | | Tuesday, February 17th, 2004 | | 3:01 am |
questions
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) pach00ey had posted this in his journal a while back, so I am posting it here, since he actually answered the same questions for me... I would love it if you can take a few minutes and do answer them. (if you want you can e-mail it to me) 1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 2. Am I loveable? 3. How long have you known me? 4. When and how did we first meet? 5. What was your first impression? 6. Do you still think that way about me now? 7. What do you think my weakness is? 8. Do you think I’ll get married? 9. What makes me happy? 10. What makes me sad? 11. What reminds you of me? 12. If you could give me anything what would it be? 13. How well do you know me? 14. When’s the last time you saw me? 15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t? 16. Do you think I could kill someone? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? 19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 20. What do you know you can count on me for? 21. What do you know you can’t count on me for? 22. What do people “just know” about me? 23. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? | | Friday, January 23rd, 2004 | | 5:12 pm |
whats in the plans for tonight
6:00pm initate level 1 backups of the servers 7:00pm perform sanity check and initate shutdown 7:30pm De-cable, and load the systems onto trucks 8:30pm Unload the systems in RWC 9:00pm Cable the systems 9:30pm Power up 10:00pm Sanity check 10:30pm Application Check if all goes as expected Should be home by 11:30 and ready to go to bed. B | | Saturday, December 20th, 2003 | | 1:41 am |
Tea and cookies
Bitterness of tea and sweetness of cookie rain for my skin thunder for my ears smile for your eyes hugs for your soul a listening ear, comforting touch it is all I can offer till you ask for more | | Thursday, December 18th, 2003 | | 10:25 pm |
TOUCH ME RIGHTSkin of two people come in contact nuerons fire a sudden high simple pleasure utter communication not a word spoken | | 11:26 am |
Hurmph
This is mistaken I think: Parents think I dont know what I am doing and can easily be decieved Stranger think I am annoying and cocky Friends think I march to the beat of a different drum | | Thursday, December 11th, 2003 | | 2:45 pm |
how much sugar has boman had today
I dont know you figure it out 48 oreo cookies 3 vinilla cokes 2 fudge brownies 17 cubes of sugar 2 rock candie sticks one pack of twix a small bag of m&ms a large thing of Amazon fulid of sugar and 4 kisses (well I am not sure if you call that sugar but folks in south sure do call is sugar, I can hear mamaw say it, bowman give me sugar before you leave) | | 2:03 pm |
Finally I found a great christmas cake recipe
One of my friends just sent this to me, I think everyone should try this recipe CHRISTMAS CAKE RECIPE You'll need the following: 1 cup of water 1 cup of sugar 4 large brown eggs 2 cups of dried fruit 1 teaspoon of salt 1 cup of brown sugar Lemon juice Nuts 1 bottle of whisky Sample the whisky to check for quality. Take a large bowl. Check the whisky again. To be sure it's the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink. Repeat. Turn on the electric mixer, beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl. Add one teaspoon of sugar and beat again. Make sure the whisky is still OK. Cry another tup. Tune up the mixer. Beat two leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit. Mix on the turner. If the fired druit gets stuck in the beaterers, pry it goose with a drewscriver. Sample the whisky to check for tonsisticity. Next, sift two cups of salt. Or something. Who cares? Check the whisky. Now sift the lemon juice and strain your nuts. Add one table. Spoon the sugar or something. Whatever you can find. Grease the oven. Turn the cake tin to 350 degrees. Don't forget to beat off the turner. Throw the bowl out of the window. Check the whisky again and go to bed. |
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